I have found a song that speaks to me and expresses the depths of my soul. Not only do I adore the music and voice of Josh Groban, but the fact that he is a fellow traveler down the road of depression, anxiety and inner turmoil is somehow comforting. I cannot sing even if my life depended on it, and am tone deaf as well, so I let Josh sing on my behalf.
I cried my heart and eyes out the first time I heard it, and even more so when I learned the story behind it. But why do I connect so intensely to this song? It is not just the depression, grief, deep sense of loss, but the simple fact that I live by the river.
Here are the lyrics for you to follow along. And understand.
Some days I am too proud to ask for help
And I stumble through the noise
Trying to find some peace
A stranger in the crowd, I lose myself
Where the troubles, they can’t find me
Let the waters there remind me
The sun will be there when we wake
Though I might not understand it
It’s not always as we planned it
But we grow stronger when we break
So, I walk down to the river
I walk down to the river
Looking for a meaning when it won’t make sense
In my head its getting loud
Like I can’t outrun this cloud
No matter where I go well there I am
Where the troubles, they can’t find me
Let the waters there remind me
The sun will be there when we wake
Though I might not understand it
It’s not always as we planned it
But we grow stronger when we break
So, I walk down to the river
I walk down to the river
Far beyond the thunder
Tell me it will all be okay
Let the waves take all my worries
Conquer them with fury
Give me shelter be my escape
Where the troubles, they can’t find me
Let the waters there remind me
The sun will be there when we wake
Though I might not understand it
It’s not always as we planned it
But we grow stronger when we break
So, I walk down to the river
I walk down to the river
I walk down to the river
I walk down to the river
To the river
To the river
I walk down oh, oh, oh
To the river oh, oh, oh
