I asked for strength that I might achieve;
I was made weak that I might learn humbly to obey.
I asked for health that I might do greater things;
I was given infirmity that I might do better things.
I asked for riches that I might be happy;
I was given poverty that I might be wise.
I asked for power that I might have the praise of men;
I was given weakness that I might feel the need of God.
I asked for all things that I might enjoy life;
I was given life that I might enjoy all things.
I got nothing that I had asked for,
but eveything that I had hoped for.
Almost despite myself my unspoken prayers were answered;
I am, among all men, most richly blessed.

-by an Unknown Confederate Soldier

This prayer was read after communion during today’s mass, and I was in tears after hearing it, for it summarises my life in 2018.

I got nothing that I had asked for,
but eveything that I had hoped for.

I arose this morning, with a deep sense of grief and sorrow, my body weary and my mind exhausted of all the thoughts being processed. The need for spiritual nourishment was great this morning, and mass was the only answer. Ask and you shall receive, and indeed, I asked, and I received.

I asked for all things that I might enjoy life;
I was given life that I might enjoy all things.

Today is the Feast of the Holy Family, and I offered my trials and sufferings to my blood relatives, soul siblings and spiritual family. Wherever you are, in whatever situation you may be, regardless of what has transpired between us, or not, we were placed in each others’ paths for a reason. To learn, to grow, to become wise. More importantly, to be able to be weak in each other’s presence and thereby draw strength from one another.